Happy Birthday Dreamboy

Oh gosh, I look super thin in this pic!
Oh and btw, the reason I call him Dreamboy was all because of Dreamgirls. He kept saying, "Saturday's the premiere of the movie, Dreamboy!" which is inferring to his birthday, rolleyes, and did I mention that's my new slang now? Rolleyes.

the song has got nothing to do with the following lyrics, btw.

I’m a train wreck in the morning
I’m a Bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you

I’m a puzzle, yes indeed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren’t even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day

Catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all

I neglect you when I’m working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I’m a host of imperfection
But you see past all that

Taken from Beyonce's new song (which is still unavailible), Flaws and All. I know the song was originally meant for relationships, but fuck it, it's still about friendship if you look at it this way. LOL.

The song explains everything. About my imperfections and his acceptance. I told Hairul about my biggest imperfection yet. He accepted it in open arms. I really do feel blessed knowing that I have a friend like him. Every line of that excerpt can be branched out to several paragraphs, for sure.

I’m a train wreck in the morning
I’m a Bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you

This is true. Sometimes, in the morning I can be all cranky and "F U C K" to everybody and insane and what not, but Hairul is... Like the only one that dares to talk to me when I'm pissed. I swear everyone else is like, "Shut up, don't talk to Zul, he's in a bad mood and he'll snap at you!". True that though. I can be mean, without warning, but Hairul is just the few that can actually let it slide.

And all the pieces aren’t even in the box
And yet, you see the picture clear as day

I am a hot ass mess. I can't classify myself and I sometimes can't even comprehend myself 50% of the time. Hairul - if he don't understands me, he'll let me know and when he understands me, he shows it (or even when he tries to understand). I guess that kind of understanding is only what only a few can show. He once told me I lack in understanding - to a certain extent I agreed, but only because it was out of anger. Honestly, I am the kind of person who is angry only with reason (UNLESS PROVOKED, lol.) so him pointing this out was another thing I could work on myself.

Catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all

Does he catch me when I fall? Well, not really. I think I'd be too heavy. Ah yes, he does however help me up when I'm down. He cares a lot for me and he proved it this past few days with the rants, "WHAT? HE THINKS I DON'T CARE FOR HIM?" (I'll explain later) and he proved it by saying, "If I never cared for you, I wouldn't have pointing things out for you".

He does accept my flaws, you know. Sure, I'm not 100% like the other guys in HAZARD, but I'm me, and that's important to him. He even said, "just be your crazy, happy self. That's who we want to see." Even though in others eyes that might seem irritating, he just... Likes it. He loves it when his friends enjoying life. I'm sure enjoying the friendship with him.

If you ask, what happened this past few days, what is up with all those emo posts and such, fact is, I talked to Hairul about our friendship and I felt that there was a problem. I talked to him about it and he pointed out that I have a few problems, about my attitude and that I was too aggressive and that I find a very hard time to classify my emotions and etcetera. It hit me like a sack of potatoes dropping from the sky. I took it too hard and got all emo about it, which by the way seems regretful, but I learned something.

Hairul cares.

That's why I love him man. He's my best friend, my homie and most importantly, my brother. Hairul helps me grow to be a better person. Even though I can be mean, he tolerates it. If I were him, I'd be all, "SHUT THE FUCK UP, ZUL!" LOL.

Thank you for being my friend, someone who has been there for me for four years and three months and still counting. You are really an inspiration to my life! (:

Did I mention I can tell if he's in trouble if something not right is happening around me when we're not in the same room? Ooh Child! BTW, this post is a year old.